Making life happen

Why is my side greener?

Why me?

Why can’t I do all the things she does? Why am I not confident enough? Brave enough? Why have I always been a good girl, in every possible way? Everyone else seems to have so much fun.

They don’t understand what I’ve been through…

No one understands.

I’m sure everyone is plagued by thoughts of doubt and despair often enough.

So many of us look at others and then find their own lives black and white in comparison. When you look closer their lives are flawed too. The holes are simply in different places.

I’ve read of people who who accomplished great things but their bodies were riddled with disease. I’ve met women with great careers, but unwholesome marriages. Happy couples with no children. Women with the ability to stand up for themselves but have chronically ill children. Lonely single men and women, with great friends.

There’s no point in looking over the fence. I wouldn’t trade my challenges for anyone else’s.

I doubt I would be able to live through them.

لاَ يُكَلّفُ اللَّهُ نَفْسًا إِلاَّ وُسْعَهَا لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ رَبَّنَا لاَ تُؤَاخِذْنَآ إِن نَّسِينَآ أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَآ إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِينَ مِن قَبْلِنَا رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تُحَمّلْنَا مَا لاَ طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَآ

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us.

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