Oh Allah, you finally gave me wings,
please let me fly.
As an asian girl I was taught that submissiveness is an admirable quality. Serving others takes you to Jannah and that strong people are only hurtful and insensitive. I grew up thinking that I should be weak. Any sign of strength that I showed had to be stomped out.
I think Allah wants me to learn something right now. If I continue to live with the attitude I have, I know I will not live well. It will affect all those around me.
Weakness is not a strength. Allah loves the strong believer. And a strong believer isn’t one that knocks everyone else down physically and emotionally.
Don’t be a martyr, there is no hidden blessing in being one. It will only leech out your energy and faith and longing for nothing but death, because if you cannot stand up for yourself, there is no place to hide.